Freakshow would be coming over soon but Desiree needed to do some things before he came.  Namely some meditation to try and figure out what was wrong with Ember and for that she needed her incense and candles.

Stepping back into her meditative sanctuary she took a calming breath and summoned up the sticks of wormwood and hazel.  She lit them with a blue flame and nealt down on the pillow in the center of the room.  The smoke caressed her like a long lost lover and she shuddered at the touch, I want Ember back.  Please...reveal to me what is wrong with her, she thought as she lit a dark purple candle in front of her with blue fire.  She stared into the flames, letting it draw her in...deeper into the flames that called to her.

Desiree gasped for breath, smoke clogging her lungs.  Her back burned and her eyes shot open to find that the candle had fallen over and was burning at the carpet.  The djinn cursed and put the flames out quickly enough, the vision already fading like a bad dream.  She had recognized the face of the goddess...but now she couldn't recall it.  She cursed under her breath...if only she had more time...but she knew Freakshow would be there soon.

((ooc: I was bored and wanted to do something with des...not to be RPed with but feel free to give comments on what you thought))

Faux is coming back.  I don't know how much time I have left...but I'm glad I got to spend it with Ember.  She has been my one true love and I wish I had met her sooner...I feel so whole with her...so complete.  Which is why...if she doesn't make it...I'm going with her.

I'd rather be in oblivion together with her than to exist on without her.  But to be honest...I would prefer she come out of this alive...as alive as we can be.

I really don't know what to say in this entry.  Everyone who could possibly read it will be targeted by Faux eventually...but I guess it's in the small hope that someone will survive.  That someone will read this and know what has happened.

Danny, Tucker, Spectra, Technus, and Clockwork have gone into Dan's head.  Kwan and Freakshow are being controlled.  Jazz, Ember, and I are going to try and hold off Faux.

Well Jazz and Ember...I'm pretty much useless after that wish.

I just...I don't want it to end like this.  I don't want to vanish...I'm so scared...so scared of oblivion.  It's the reason Faux scares me so badly...he IS oblivion...he's silence...and he will bring about the end for all of us.

I've made a matching amulet for myself...it contains the same fire I put in Ember's.  If anyone should read this...and find Ember and I...would you PLEASE grant my last wish.  It's the only thing I want now.  Nothing else matters anymore.

I want to be with her.  I want her so bad.  Please...just...put us together.  Spread our ashes together...I want to go out in a blaze...I want her with me.  I just...I can't think of doing this without her.

And it seems I'm crying again.  I told myself not to shed anymore tears.  I have to be strong.  I can't let Ember down...but I know she won't let me fight.  I just, I don't want to loose her...it's all so meaningless.

I should go.  I don't know how much time we have left.

-Desiree

PS Ember and I had sex in Dan's bedroom.

((ooc: Desiree's last dream.  Not godmodded.  See if you can guess who represents what card.))